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Mar. 27th, 2022

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My Journal is Friends Only.

I am sure you know what to do.

Aug. 31st, 2009

I know that this is random...

but i felt like sharing..

Mar. 12th, 2009

Randomness.. I am not entirely sure why.. so bare with me :)

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It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I wanna love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me (Oh believe it), every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
Still getting closer baby
Can't get closer enough
Still holding on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all the moves
I remember you yeah
I remember the nights, you know I still do

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me (Oh believe it), every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

The one thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm praying
That's why I'm saying

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Babe believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, if I can't stop loving you
No, believe, I don't know what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you


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Jan. 11th, 2009

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I don't post much anymore, but i figured i can change that once i move to Hawaii and a new set of adventures begin.

I decided to keep it all so that eventually i can go back and read it. It will be fun to see what went through my crazy head as things happen, after all it is my first time getting involved with a guy to the extent i am about to. I will be living on an island far away from everyone... I wonder how school will go? What kind of crazy things will that bring? I guess even though there are many many questions, unknowns, uncertainties and insecurities I will face it head on. It's such an opportunity. This man has open up a door for me that i am not ready to close, all my reservations and introverted tendencies seem to melt when he is around me. I feel like i can do anything. I am in a great place in life where i can do this and to tell you the truth what a place to go to do it in.. I can't wait to go back to school. I can't wait to learn again.

I also can't wait to see what else this life has in store for me. It's been an incredible journey and it is true what they say, anything is possible!

Dec. 26th, 2008

*le sigh*

I just recieved this in the mail from Ben.
Now mind you, i've threatened him with his life if he was to give me anything for xmas. I don't need anything plus i am already freaking out how to ship things all the way to the damn hawaii..

And then i get a bracelet that kind of looks like this in the mail..

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Pure Jade... How beautiful is that? :)

Nov. 12th, 2008

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My war wound...

I got into a rumble with my lunch which happened to be a hot burning soup... and well.. I lost :(

Oct. 30th, 2008

News!!

Upon many hours of thorough conversation with my boyfriend, we have decided to push back my move to hawaii from June to well February. So what i am trying to say is I am moving to Hawaii February 9th!!!

So much to do... Wish me luck not to go completely Crazy-Nutso!

I am in heaven now, bye bye Champaign!

Apr. 14th, 2007

Teaching humans dog tricks..

I've just had one of the most interesting encounters..

A lady walks into the clinic hands full of cookie boxes. She sets them on the counter and looks at our business card holder. She has long blonde overly processed hair and is wearing no makeup at all. She looked like any other client of ours, all in all nothing out of the ordinary.

For a few minutes she studied the business cards displayed in front of her and finally turns towards me enquiring about the doctor who has the most credits. I told her that both of our practitioners are very well qualified and that both are very good, which is true. She wonders about their specialties. Rebecca is the only doctor with an actual specialty and she is a behaviorist. Curt does everything.

The women's face lightens up when she hears this; she needs a behaviorist she says. She asks me if I know anything about autism and its influence. She tells me she has this condition where animal instincts kick in the back of her brain and she gets very angry. She says she a very nice person but when this happens she becomes enraged and acts like an animals.

I look at her dumbfounded. Is this a joke? Is she messing with me? but she looks at me so hopeful she really believes.. Carefully, I explain to her that this is a veterinary clinic that I work for a veterinarian and not a human doctor. I inform her that the Carle clinic is just down the road on her right, maybe she missed a turn. No, no, she really does want a veterinarian, a behaviorist veterinarian; they are the only ones that can help her.

This can't be happening today..

I took a deep breath and attempted to explain to her that a veterinarian cannot cross the line into human medicine and that they certainly cannot cure her "animal" instincts. If she feels like she has behavioral problems, she needed to see a 'human behaviorist' aka psychiatrist… Never! Those bastards make her skin crawl. She can't stand them; she is not going to go see one! Am I really sure that a veterinarian won't consider her case?

Well sure lady, it's everyday that behaviorist cure human animal instincts, I mean after all we all used to live in the wild…

Yes, yes I am sure. It is illegal for them to cross that line. But she says, cant you look in the veterinary registry and see if any of them would do this for her, she would pay, her speech therapist would vouch for her…

Maybe your speech therapist needs a shrink too?

No, I don't have that kind of information, in addition I am supposed to be working and not doing this type of research. I can give you the number for the vet school and you can try your luck there… although, I really doubt any of them will accept to do anything like this.. as I said, it is illegal.

Still she wants the phone for the vet school and I give it to her…

A client walks in and she hurries out grabbing Rebecca's card… I am thinking, crap! She is going to call Rebecca anyways…


So I call Rebecca, hey sorry to bother you on the weekend… be prepared…

Feb. 21st, 2007

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Zaboravio decak papagaja u frizideru. Nakon pet sati decak otvara frizider i
iznenadjeno uzvikne:
-Ma koga to moje okice vide??!
A papagaj sav ljut:
-Pingvina, pi*ka ti materina!!!!!

Feb. 7th, 2007

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This is great!

Feb. 3rd, 2007

Joe

As I promised to put my thoughts into paper more often, I decided to honor that promise with a story about something that took place a couple of days ago at work.

The Story )

I've got the job i wanted...

Well, it is ALMOST the job i wanted to get. Ideally, I'd like to work at the library. It's always been my dream as a little girl. After all, i've spend half of my life inside that building.

It's close though. I'll be working at a bookstore as a book seller, i'll be the person that finds the book you want or guide you in finding what you need. It will be fun and i cannot wait! :)

I am still working at the clinic, just one day per week and i'll pick up shifts whenever i get free days from the store.

My life has just taken a very interesting turn. :)

Feb. 1st, 2007

The first shrimp

I keep being asked to write… Apparently it's something I should be doing more of..


I'll give it a try, but I've been seriously lacking inspiration lately.. writing used to come to me so easy.. and now… Forcing it back may not be a good idea, but it might be.. we shall see.


Anyhow, The Shrimp Story..


My first Shrimp.. oh the memories..


Let's start from the beginning. As many know, but others may not, I used to work in a retirement home called Windsor of Savoy. I was in the "dining services", but don't let the fancy title fool you, what it really means is that I was the resident slave waitress. We all were.


Our jobs were very simple, we were to come everyday at 4, 4:30 or 5pm, depending on our schedules and do various jobs that were presented as stations. I am not sure how it works in the real world waiting jobs, but in this particular place it just meant that we had a set number of tables that could be situated anywhere in the dining room along with a side of the kitchen we were to clean up at the end of the day. It was pretty simple, someone was in charged of drinks and making sure people were always satisfied with their beverages, others were in charge of bossing tables, and a select few of us were in charged of actually waiting on tables. (I will speak of this some other time)


My first encounter with the particular food entry that a shrimp could be, was in this place. Considering that the Windsor of Savoy was one of the high class retirement homes where rooms were small apartments and the price of living there was $3 000 and up, monthly of course, shrimps there were a delicacy the residents didn't get all the time. (Price wasn't an issue, their food choices were limited due to various health problems most people living there had). As I just moved to the United States, my idea of shrimp was what I've seen in the movies. It's a rich man delicacy and I could forget of ever getting a chance of trying it.


During one of those special nights when they did have shrimp as part of the menu, the rest of the staff and I had the chance to eat whatever was left over at the end of the night. Even hearing this as I am writing it in my head, I can't help but thinking of dogs being fed the leftovers of their master's meal. Doesn't it sound that way? It wasn't like that at all, but that's just what came to mind right now. I digress. The shrimp we had the opportunity to try that night was mixed with some vegetables and made into a sauce type of entry that was to be eaten with some white rice. We all had to try it, of course. It was delicious! The shrimp itself was nice, white and pink. They were tiny and already cleaned up. All you really had to do is put it in your mouth and enjoy the savory taste it left behind.. I was so impressed with shrimp that night; I wanted to eat them all the time. It was shrimps! I loved them!


Until the summer of 2000…

It was the best summer of my life; it was the summer right after my sophomore year in high school. I had a job. I had everything a teenager could possibly want at the time.

That particular summer, as we were visiting friends and family, I returned to Croatia for the first time after 8 years. I was excited to see everyone all over again. I simply could not wait.


Of course, everyone who has known me since I was a little child wanted to see me, talk to me, ask me questions. One particular parent wanted to call me over for dinner and it was my friend Marina's mom. She invited me that one afternoon after the beach to come eat at their place. Can you guess what was on the menu? You got it! Shrimps!


Man was I excited! I could not wait. Not only was I going to see Marina's family who I've missed very much, but I also got to eat REAL Mediterranean Shrimps. The real deal! Not one of those things that you buy frozen in stores, like what they did at the Windsor. These were fresh shrimps, bought the day after they were captured. What could be better than that I though!


Boy was I wrong…


As I entered my friend's home, I could smell the strong odor of fried food. I did not know what to expect, all I could think of is how I got to eat real Croatian food. I was excited! I sat down with Marina talking about EVERYTHING. We couldn't stop ourselves. There was so much to catch up on. What was she up to while she was in Germany? How my life was while I was in Switzerland? How America is going and if it is all it is cracked up to be? So many questions from both of us, so much excitement that I did not notice what was about to be put in front of me.


Marina's mom set down a big pan. It was covered so I did not know what was in it. I kept talking to Marina, oblivious to what is about to be unravel in front of me. Finally a hint of hunger and the sweet fragrance of good food stopped us both half sentence. We decided to eat and to continue our talk later. Marina decided to show me how it is all done so she opened the pan. There it was, that sweet sweet sea food I was longing for so much, right in front of me, staring me in the eyes. Literally!


These weren't the nice little pink shrimps I've eaten before. They were not even pink! These were some creepy looking bugs that were about to come out of that pan and attack me. I gagged silently, trying not to let either Marina or her mom see my distress. Were they kidding? I did not sign up to eat grasshoppers here. I wanted my SHRIMP! What kind of cruel joke was this? These things had tentacles coming out of their heads. They had ALL of their feet and tale. They looked very much so alive. They were trying to get out of that pan and come after me. Was I on Fear Factor without knowing it?


Marina dug in right away, like a real Dalmatian girl. Enthusiastically she proceeded to show me how exactly to 'clean' those creatures and which part to eat. I was watching her in disbelief. She wasn't kidding. She really was going to eat them! Not to offend, I had to do the same.. Cautiously I picked one with my fork, making sure that I stabbed it good, just in case it was still alive. Hey! You never know! It can turn around and bite your tongue or something. I was prudent. Still trying to keep a straight face, not show my profound disgust for what I was doing, I proceeded to clean the creature. Finally I got to the good part. I ate it, and after it all, my suffering, my distress, the damn thing, it had no taste! Let me repeat this, in case you missed it the first time. It has NO taste! Zilch! Nada! Rien! I had 2 more of these so called "shrimps" and I was full. My stomach could not take anymore… During all this time, Marina was at her 10th Shrimp, commenting on how slow I was at eating mine. I couldn't believe it, but at this point I was ready to get out of this place before Marina's mom acts like every other good Eastern European woman does and offers I take some home! I took all the comments on how little I eat and how skinny I was. I rapidly helped them clean the table and tossed the idea of going back to the beach on the table. We were out of that house so fast, Flash had nothing on me!



What have they done to this delicacy I so much desired a few months before… Needless to say, after that day, it took me a while before I could eat shrimps again..

Jan. 6th, 2007

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So remember that camera that i've been after for months now? I finally decided on one...

Meet my new little gadget that has as of today cost me $500

Picture )


Feature-rich, compact 6.0 Megapixel digital camera with super long 12x Optical Zoom and UD Lens

Canon Optical Image Stabilizer technology and ISO 800 for steady shooting and excellent sharpness and color

DIGIC II Image Processor and iSAPS Technology for superior image quality, faster operation and lower power consumption

Exclusive "MovieSnap" feature allows for taking still images while shooting movies

With the new Movie Button, record high-quality 60 fps QVGA (320 x 240) continuous movies without switching modes, and use advanced features such as optical zooming during the movie and Stereo Sound

16:9 Widescreen for full-screen viewing on widescreen TVs and computer monitors

Print/Share Button for easy direct printing and downloading, plus ID Photo Print and Movie Print with Canon CP and SELPHY Compact Photo Printers

For more go here
Specifications



Now i need to learn how to use it :P

Dec. 30th, 2006

Happy New Year everyone :))

Dec. 12th, 2006

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I found this funny

Dec. 11th, 2006

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I want to dye my hair black
is my real hair color...

what do you think?

Dec. 6th, 2006

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Man has this been a special week.
So quick ambiguous update..
I hate being just a good 'friend'. I wish for once that i was more than that... Bleh on that..


On an other note, i am SO glad Caridee won America's Next Top Model, i could not stand Melrose.. I know, this show became my guilty pleasure. I couldn't help but watch it :P

Dec. 1st, 2006

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is anyone in my list in human medicine?

I really need to ask something important.... message me if you are

Nov. 28th, 2006

I miss her

I miss my best friend. I've never met anyone like her and i probably never will..

I miss learning how to breakdance with her.
I miss rapping in the middle of the street, me being like weird al and her with her obnoxiously loud voice.
I miss the "street" life.
I miss getting cought with boys in our room during our ski camps.
I miss how she got me out of getting punished under pretense that i was a "muslim".
I miss competing on who is darker over the summer.
I miss getting kicked out of prestigious designer swiss boutiques because we are too loud. (Christina is loaded, her father died and left her a fortune, every single one of the stores that kicked us out was losing a VERY good client)
I miss her weird taste for very geeky man and her phobia of men with darker complection..

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I miss cheating on Geography and Music test with her.

I miss competing on who is a better artist, who draws better, who writes better, who is going to end up with a better grade. (we were both at the top of the class in both, within .01 points of difference btw each other)

I miss her, i miss her because she helped me break through my shell. She helped me realize so much. I love her. Damn it, never have i regretted moving as much as i do now :(

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